It was sunny and bright until late afternoon when the clouds began to gather over my little peaceful lake.  I have been quiet today...lost in thought.  Perhaps a bit tired from a couple of things.  I have been newly diagnosed with diabetes and am on a medication Januvia which I have heard great things about.  My energy level has definitely picked up in the  past two weeks that I have  faithfully took my daily dose of Januvia.    However, along with my new diagnosis of diabetes, I also learned from the doctor that I have low thyroid....:ahhhh Sandra," I thought to myself,  "this explains my weight gain and the difficulty I have had in losing weight!"  I mentally kicked myself for not realizing the obvious signs of hypothyroidism in myself...the exhaustion, the weight gain, I can go on and on...but I realize it is futile to sit and kick myself (laughing).  So, of course another medication...Levothyroxin has been added to my daily compliment of heart medications, blood pressure medications.

 

"Good Lord!" I think to myself,  "I have become exactly like the elderly patients I have cared for in the hospital who used to bring all of their medications in grocery sacks to the emergency room."   

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

"Time to write again," I tell myself.  After all, I have taken a two-year hiatus since moving to Florida.  I have been sealed in my cocoon, biding my time, healing from old wounds and  recovering from the assaults of life.  "It is time to emerge from my safe haven, take a few steps into the sunlight, and learn once again from Life." I sternly remind myself as I begin once again to write...my thoughts, my inner most feelings gently pouring forth from my mind,  my fingers tapping wildly upon  the keyboard.  

 

The phone call started the stirrings within my heart...fluttering softly at first and later aching with sadness as I listened to the voice of an old friend tell me his sad news.  His Life partner...his wife of several decades had passed beyond.  His grief touched deeply within me as I felt the darkness of my cocoon wrap me safely inside.  We talked briefly and the phone call ended.  I did not expect to hear from him for a good long time. 

 

The thought of "WAITING"...jarred my consciousness....bringing with it the realization that  Life has gone on!  The sweetness of Summer has faded into Fall and Winter has begun as I emerged from my safe and comfortable withdrawal.     I have been Waiting...and the awareness of this has driven me from my cocoon. 

 

I feel the warmth of the sunshine kissing my skin, as the frost from my heart melts away and I have entered the Winter Years of my Lifetime, I feel youth within my heart...prodding me onward.

Life is not without It's risks

but doesn't that make Life the more sweeter. . .